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Friday

REVEAL

This morning I want to talk about Revelation—or the lost art of Revealing.

I also want to talk about Demonstration—which is the art of Proving.

There is a difference between Revealing and Demonstrating and it relates to the quality of—not only one’s life, but also of society.

If you ask for something, you will get it. It’s what you want. It may not be in “the best of your interest”—but it is still what you want.

If you want it out of your Unconscious—you will get the Unconscious need met. If you want it out of your Heart—you will get the needs of your Heart’s contentment met.

If you want it out of your Soul—you will get what the Soul wants. If you want it out of your Consciousness—you will become enlightened.

All these things cannot be promised…but they shall be demonstrated by you…and if you do not have a proper relationship to revelation—these things will not be Revealed.

Revelation is the Truth and Essence of Life—residing within all things. It is the permeation one calls “Fragrance”—when someone or something emanates sweetness. Fragrance cannot be demonstrated. It can only be revealed.

This is how it works:

If you want someone to worship your body—you will find someone who will worship your body. If someone doesn’t worship your body—you will make it a career to worship bodies.

If you love a Man for his muscles, you will get only muscles. If you love a woman for tits and ass, you will get tits and ass. If you want a woman to worship you for your money—she will only worship you for your money. If you want to marry a man for his wealth—you will look for wealthy men.

If you want to enjoy these sensual aspects of life purely based on Hotness—you will get Hotness. You will probably do everything to put yourself in that environment.

No one can say that they do not get what they ask for. It is not true: we get exactly what we ask for…and afterwards, God sends the Bill.

As a child, I knew this was true. But I was sincere. Even though we were poor, I always got what I wanted it. Why? Because I didn’t believe that people could Demonstrate to me my needs. I believed that what I asked for—would be revealed…and so I spoke with my heart—and waited, and whatever I wanted always came. I was never unhappy and impatient, because I knew “it was coming.” This was what established my relationship to “God” at a very young age—because I had a Friend that understood me.

Later in life, when I became more “conditioned” or brainwashed…I became less and less pure; that is so say, I was conditioned to become less and less human. Each day that went by—the reality that I lived in crowded out this wealth of Existence that protected me, comforted me and gave me everything I ever needed. Whatever I needed inside—always manifested outside—and that was the only thing that made me realize my Faith.

If you are Christian, you will probably not understand what I mean by Faith.

I will tell you what Faith is: it is yearning and expectation…it is desire in its most sincere and loving form. It is hope and it is conviction that something real within will reveal itself outwardly. Faith does not seek demonstration. Faith does not even believe in God—Faith does not condition. Faith is pure Love.

When I left home for College and was living in New York…my mother went to Vietnam to visit an Uncle whom I never met. My Uncle is a monk—and he was apparently psychic.

Although he never met me or knew anything of me, when my mother asked him to tell my fortune, he said to her, “Your child is a Poet. She also gets everything she wants in life. The problem is, she is impatient, because she wants it all now. The thing is she gets it even when she is impatient.”

My mother did not know I wrote poetry. I wrote poetry—but I never considered myself a poet. It was just something that I did and shared with close friends; I never wrote “Academically.” I never write poetry to be arty.

I started “dating” very late in life. That was because I never understood dating: I didn’t understand what it meant. I didn’t know what it was. Friendships and relationships seemed very natural: but why do strangers get together to “scope each other out?”

I made up my mind that I either had sex with a person—or I involved myself with a person; there was no “in-between”—nothing is as corrupt as “dating”—as second-guessing and demonstrating one’s worth to one another.

I knew that my first lover would be smart and sexy inwardly out. I asked for this, and it was received.

After this ended, I asked for the most beautiful girl who would come to me like an angel. I asked for this and it was received. She was a French-Israeli girl, even her name meant “origin” or “ray of light.”

She was a gorgeous (natural) blonde who appeared to me in a club and we passionately began to kiss. It was such a heavenly graceful experience that a person come up and said, “You two are so beautiful,” placed each hand on our backs to nudge us together and said, “Stay that way!”

She introduced me to all these cool punker Israeli friends of hers—and we hung out all night. I would visit her at work and we’d go on “make out” breaks. We’d walk down the grocery aisle—and molested each other at each section. The Chaos of the world revolved around us. We didn’t care. It was pure Hotness.

After this, I had a thing for “strippers” and wanted to date someone with total hotness. I asked for this and it was received. She was American but looked like a character out of an Ingmar Bergman movie—tall and full of grace. And you know—it was a very simple transaction: I saw her in a bar, we smiled at each other and she came over to me. I said I wanted to make love—so we did.

I wanted Hotness so I got hotness. They were not relationships, they were just hotness. I asked for that, and I got it.

Later down the road, my cat, Freedom, came into my life. She was the most beautiful thing ever: with her white face that split down a black spot at the top of her head. She looked “Elizabethan” this way; her eyes were big and green. She had a pink nose and just the chin on her white face—was a full orange; in short, she had a cute orange “goatee.”

One day, she came up to me and I lovingly said to her, “Freedom, I love you so much—I think I’d love to have a girlfriend JUST LIKE YOU…someone sooooo cute, soooo sweet!”

And then she came: a gorgeous Israeli blonde with big green eyes, pale white and so incredibly sweet. She was my lover for five years….She is also my last.

Then the Bill came.

This “bill” that I am talking about—it not a tab for your “sins.” In fact, we do nothing wrong in life—we just Demonstrate who we are—or who we think we are at the time.

The Bill is a Revelation of who you really are. And when you find that out—that’s when you start to “pay.”

This Payment is often called Karma…and in fact it is.

Most people do not understand Karma. They think that if you do “good karma” you get that in return…and if you do “bad karma” you get that in return. This is not true:

Some people do bad things and get good things in return; some people do good all the time and all they get is suffering.

It is during these moments that people stop believing in God—or doubt that one exists. It is largely because they do not understand Karma.

Karma in short: is actions. I often do not add the word “reaction” after I describe it—although there is a “reaction” (for every action).

But I stop at Action, because that is what Karma is. Every Action has a corresponding Action. If you want to call that corresponding Action a “Reaction”—that’s when you decide that the outcome is “good or bad.”

And that is why I stop at Action—because to me, what happens afterwards is just a corresponding Action without dual thinking (judgment or discrimination).

This Law of Action doesn’t judge you: it’s you whom judge yourself and your own relationship or concept of God.

The Law of Action does what you tell it to. So if you only want to meet people with Hotness, you get that. If you want to meet with Nerds, you get that. If you want to meet people who like to Gossip—you get that.

You get what you ask for—and that is the Law of Action.

If you understand this—you will start paying the bills. This is because you realize that everything you order off the menu of life—you will have to pay for. You agreed to each thing that you signed up for…and then you pay the price.

If you forgo the bill, and do not believe in the law of action—then you will become a slave to the law of bondage…you keep going on in life, repeating things and asking yourself why you are so unsatisfied, why are people so fucked up? What is God? Life has no meaning…”I will just go on this way until the day I die; and I am okay with that.”

So this “bill” in life—when God hands you the bill: is not because you are “paying for your sins.” It has nothing to do with right or wrong: it has everything to do with Purity and Consciousness.

This “bill” is the purification process in which you start to understand that God does not deny you of anything: but that you denied yourself.

You could never say that God never answers your prayers or never gave you want you wanted. It is not true: we all get what we ask for; we do get what we want.

The lovers that I had in life, some of them have asked me for their Trust. I never gave that to them; and they told me that the relationship ended because of me: because I did not trust them.

This is not true. Trust is like Faith…it is not something that you pull out of a hat. It is very pure…very real. Faith and Trust are the same in this way: they reveal themselves—they do not demonstrate.

So love-making without Trust is extremely difficult—because your body goes through the motion—but it is not opening up. The reason for this is very obvious to me: when you don’t trust someone, you cannot reveal yourself—but only Demonstrate.

The reason we Demonstrate (rather than Reveal), whether it is in bed, at work, at a job interview or performing something etc—it’s because the Vessel or person receiving you is closed (they don’t want You; they want what They want). They do not want to see you reveal yourself; they only want you to satisfy their Ego.

That is why we do not trust or have faith in certain situations, things or people: not because there is something wrong with us; but because we have this amazing “meter” in us that knows it would make us impure—to give to something just to Demonstrate; just to satisfy Ego.

The Soul wants more than anything—to Reveal itself.

The reason some people do not “believe in God” or a God of any sort, is because they’ve been trained that God should “approach them”—that God Demonstrates to them.

So what do they do? They go to service and watch a Guru, Priest or Spiritual Teacher Demonstrate to them….act before them, and “reveal” or show them what God is. They want to be revealed—but really ask God to be “proven.”

If you ask God to demonstrate, you get demonstrations. But nothing reveals.

This is why so many people do not know God.

That is why people do not have Revelations; not because Life holds back from you and refuses to reveal itself.

Yet, it is quite the opposite; Life or Reality is revealing, unfolding and displaying all its “Mysteries” all the time. But as Vessels—we cannot receive it. We have too much Ego needs, too many Ego cravings and ask Nature, Love, and God to perform and dance for us: to Demonstrate for us.

And when these things don’t pan out to our satisfaction, we deny spiritual “phenomenon” and our own existence by saying, “None of these things exists; why should I have faith in the ludicrous?”

The Truth is that the only thing ludicrous about Life—is a Human being’s ability to make themselves Ludicrous and Unknown to Reality.

When I write about “Reality being there—and you just walk into it”—it’s not to be clever. I have seen it, experienced it and it is very real.

We ask for things in life—and then we bar ourselves up against them after we discover that what we wanted were Lies.

When the bill comes we say, “But I asked for Wealth and now I Hate myself—what went wrong?”

They look not to the fact that Life offered them something so graciously—but rather become resentful: “There is no meaning to life, I slaved my ass off for everything I earned in life—and what do I get, a bitch that spends all my money and children that don’t respect me.”

We ask for these things, and then we blame God for not intervening or for Life not revealing itself to us.

We don’t Reveal ourselves to life—but we want everything to come to us.

If you want Life to Demonstrate to you—it will. It will demonstrate from all sides of you…all the needs that come out of your pores will be met. But it will not Reveal—because you did not ask for that.

If you demonstrate Good will—you will get nasty people shitting on you; Why? because maybe your Will isn’t all too good; maybe you’re hiding something and are just demonstrating it.

So that is why your needs must be Pure and Clean…and your needs must stem and flower from Consciousness—free of Ego; and radiating of the yearning of the Soul.

The inhibition or stoppage of Revelation starts very early in life.

When you are born, parents and people marvel at children and how the Child’s Soul reveals itself. They are so fascinated with it to where adults feel “like a child again” when they experience this.

As adults, we develop Perversion. It’s very perverse and self-hating that we deny ourselves the Soul’s revelation—but we let this revealing process unfold in dogs, cats and children.

To add fuel to the flame, we get addicted to pets and breed more children as pets. Look at Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt: they so clearly hate themselves and each other.

As we grow older, we begin to hate ourselves and consider such nuances and sense of Wonder in us to be “naive” and “child like” in an adversary way. We hate ourselves and deny ourselves this inner-revelation—of our Soul unfolding daily.

Later in life, our society teaches us to only Demonstrate our worth—and never reveal who we are. This is not so much the case with all cultures—but is the biggest problem in America.

Much later, when a person enters the work force—all shit hits the fan.

Suddenly, you find yourself sitting at a job interview—not revealing yourself (your true potentials) but Demonstrating and only telling people what THEY want to hear.

And you know, you twist your image daily living like this…to be forced to Demonstrate what others want. So no wonder when people meet each other and fall in love—they only want not—who the person really is—but for that person to Demonstrate to them what THEY want.

Revealing yourself is not about being stupidly crass, farting, talking trash and letting loose. Revealing yourself is the hunger in the Soul to manifest its potential in the truest way that it can; in the purest way.

In life, we become impure largely because Society is Ignorant. We are born into this Ignorance and it is the Soul’s struggle to reveal itself.

When this “Bill” comes in life—we pay for it.

Some people call it a Mid-Life Crisis but it is much deeper than that. It is in fact, a spiritual crisis that addresses something very crucial to the “peace” that everyone wants to root for. But in their hearts—they do not believe in peace, for how can you believe in something when you don’t know what it is?

But I believe in Peace because I know what it is: it is the Reality of the Soul (that is born into a Life and knows that it has to get to work; to reveal itself—fulfill it’s divine right or what we call “purpose”). If the Soul does not get to work in this life—there will be no peace.

People take for granted that we have the capacity to get what we want and create what we want. Just because some ideology of God as a big man with a whip is not standing over us and correcting us—we feel we can do anything under the sun—and in which ever fashion and whichever way we want.

But the Laws of Actions brings with it Responsibility—and that is what we forget.

We forget that for every paradigm we set up for ourselves or others—we create action.

You know, this whole thing about all the Mysteriously Rich People behind America’s Federal Reserve—they are so stupid. They think that they can con society into always feeding the wealthy while sitting behind a thick black cloak and playing God.

They are so stupid because they think just because we—the people—cannot call them out by Name or by Faces—that we do not see what’s happening.

But you know what, when the Bill comes, it looks like this:

“It doesn’t matter how many people you fuck over to get rich and it doesn’t matter how many billions you hog. The fact is you will only live until 60, 70 or 80…and then you DIE. If you know you’re going go die, why do you do all these things—and leave behind a big mess for others? What is the price of other people’s suffering? Do you really think that your happiness in this life will be justified—simply because you have no respect for death? Do you think that when you die—the Account has been cleared?”

This is off the topic, but it is one that I really do marvel at.

In life, people base all their actions on “getting away” with things—as if it is so much fun. Just because someone doesn’t reach their hand out of the sky and crack you with a whip—you think you are God. The consequences of this behavior are so grave—it is not even worth considering. It is beyond it; without words.

If you do not realize that the Law of Action is not a moral law—but one that is part of nature—you will go on getting what you want in life. But the Bill always comes…it hands itself to you in very imaginative ways.

In my life now, I am very careful about what I ask for. As much as I want to make movies, I do not lay around dreaming about a bag of money falling from the sky. I do not fantasize about all kinds of things falling onto my lap.

Why? Because I realize that if I ask for that—it is out of my Unconscious—and not out of my Soul. It is an impure thought—that will lead to impure things.

In America people like to “Dream Big.” I have nothing against Dreaming or Bigness—but you can’t dream big until you become a Dream and you become big.

To become a Dream and become Big—you must reveal yourself—to yourself. And if you cannot do that—and millions of dollars fall on your lap: what are you going to do with it?

You will start scheming and dreaming of ways to keep it and to demonstrate that you’re worthy of that money. Then the fun begins, and play of life unfolds…and what happens next…you wait for the Bill.

You will always wait for the bill and project this onto a “Fear of Death.”

People are not afraid of Death—they are afraid of Responsibilities. They are afraid that when they Die—their Soul does not know where to go. This is because in their own lives—they did not know where to go.

Many people are not conscious of this—so they project this onto Death. But what they really fear is this Bill—that is Life itself—handing you the bill and asking, “Could you please Reveal yourself? You’ve demonstrated all kinds of things—but Who are you?”

As much as I still love Hotness—I do not ask for it. I do not even ask for a Perfect Lover or to be in any kind of relationship.

What I do ask for is Love—and I will get it; if not already. What this Love is—is for Life to reveal itself to me—as I reveal myself to Life.

You know, the Score is clean when you live a truthful life. After this, there is no need to “look for meaning” or look for anything. Things happen to you because you’ve allowed yourself to Unfold and Reveal what the Soul wants most: the Soul wants Love.

Love can only be Revealed; it cannot be Demonstrated.

If anyone has lived long enough to experience enough heartbreak—all of this should make complete sense: when you love out of demonstration (ego based needs) you will meet people who also love out of demonstration. In demonstration there is always a transaction of proving one’s worth to one another—and that is not Love.

True Love never proves itself just as how God can never (or is not meant to) be “proven.”

The Love that is true—is one that reveals itself as a Reality. If you find it—walk right into it.

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